YES

Just like the raindrops

Falling down my window

You never stop until

You hit the floor

And broken now

You’re struggling

To get back up

But the world’s too much

And with the weight of the world

Your knees are shaking just standing alone

You can’t imagine walking now

With each breath it gets harder to breathe

I fell in love with a girl

But I only knew her name

I tried to enter her world

But she just pushed me away

And the tears she cried at night

Continued to go unheard

She was drowning in her pain

Isn’t it absurd

That through all the tears and all the sadness

Through all the anger and the rage

The only thing that she truly longed for

Was someone to hold her

There was something about the way she walked

That just drove me insane

There was something about the way she talked

I wanted her to stay

Her sad sorry smile

Broke so many hearts

But mine’s been broken before

All that’s left is parts

So she can’t break me

If I’m already broken

Maybe we could fix each other

Or maybe I was just hoping

I thought if she gave me a chance

I could show her she’s not alone

Love is anything but instant

Slowly you keep moving on

And the tears she cried at night

Continued to go unheard

She was drowning in her pain

Isn’t it absurd

That through all the tears and all the sadness

Through all the anger and the rage

The only thing that she truly longed for

Was someone to hold her

Sometimes in the dead of the night

I can still hear her breathe

And so I close my eyes tight

Begging not to see

Because when she noticed me at last

It didn’t matter that I was poor

And she decided at that moment

That I was worth dying for

Then I wake from a dream

And realize that it was me

I was the one who died

And she is still alive

Searching for her king

She had no need for a queen

 

Have you ever seen the sun rise on yesterday?

Tomorrow never comes, and today never came

Did the light shine on the path behind you?

So that you can’t see where you’re going?

But don’t look back, cause you won’t like what you see

It will crush all your hopes

And destroy all your dreams

Yesterday was but a moment ago

Life flashing before your eyes

Tomorrow has never existed

As time passes by

You’re stuck living in the past

Look what you’ve done

Look what you’ve done

Have you ever seen a fire that doesn’t burn?

Impossible you thought, but it’s everywhere you turn

Did it roll across the ground creating life?

Blocking your way home?

But don’t look back, cause you won’t like what you see

It will crush all your hopes

And destroy all your dreams

Yesterday was but a moment ago

Life flashing before your eyes

Tomorrow has never existed

As time passes by

You’re stuck living in the past

Look what you’ve done

Look what you’ve done

Trapped

Caged like a lion and pacing back and forth

I’ve lost my freedom and my means of escape

And so the pain just sits there, waiting

No way to get out, no way to release it

Because everyone’s watching, waiting to see

Waiting to see if I’ll do it, if I’ll mess up again

And it leaves me with no place to escape to

Everyone fighting for my attention

When all I want is to hide away

Away from the eyes that are always on me

Staring

Watching me like a hawk watches its prey

And if I go more than one minute without paying attention

SNAP!

I get attacked

I can’t go anywhere to hide, the eyes follow me

I can’t do anything to escape

Not even sleep enables me to evade the eyes

They watch over me all night

As if - if they looked away, I would suddenly be gone

And it makes me think

Maybe it would be better

To let everything out at once, and be done with it

Rather than be forced to keep it in

Everyone says it’s not good to keep it bottled in

But then they don’t give me a way to let it out

They don’t let me get it out

Hypocrites

If they want me to live, they should let me live

Not enclosed like some kind of zoo animal

That people can come and see when they want

With a big sign that says “suicidal tendencies”

And leave me to be stared at by doctors and observed by nurses

Like I’m some kind of guinea pig

In a zoo

Like I’m some kind of rare species

That’s never been researched before

And they’re not quite sure what to make of it

So they stare at me all day and all night

And in my enclosure I have no places to hide

No where to slink beneath submissively

Is this how my life is going to be forever?

Will I always be trapped?

Or will I someday be set free…free to release what’s inside

Because it’s eating me up

And it really doesn’t matter

Someday I’ll be gone, no matter what they do

And it’s up to them when that time will be

Sooner

Later

It doesn’t make a difference to me

Because if I go, I won’t feel anymore

And I won’t have to care

Just Leave It

The river flows
And twists and curves around the city
Where the lonely lights
Glisten on the ripplin’ water
And the echoes
Of the empty hearts pass me by
And I
And I

And I feel that I should tell you
The truth about me
But at the same time
I’m scared to be let down and turned away
Should I tell you?
Give an ultimatum;
To take me as I am or just leave it?

The rushing wind
Blows invisibly between the streets
Making itself
Known to all who dare to step outside
And the screams
Of the broken voices reach my ears
And I
And I

And I feel that I should tell you
The truth about me
But at the same time
I’m scared to be let down and turned away
Should I tell you?
Give an ultimatum;
To take me as I am or just leave it?

But what if you say
That you don’t want me
What do I do
With my broken heart?
And what if you say
That I am no longer yours?
What do I do
With my broken mind?
And what if you say
That you’re fine with it
What do I do
With my broken life?
What do I do….? What do I do?

And I feel that I should tell you
The truth about me
But at the same time
I’m scared to be let down and turned away
Should I tell you?
Give an ultimatum;
To take me as I am or just leave it?

And I feel that I should tell you
The truth about me
But at the same time
I’m scared to be let down and turned away
Should I tell you?
Give an ultimatum;
To take me as I am or just leave it?

Just leave it
Just leave it
Either take me as I am or just leave it




All Dreams Are, Are Memories

The sun can't always last forever
sooner or later it has to fall
casting us into a world of darkness
stuck in a state of mindless wandering

I want to live in a world of pure black
not that there's such a thing as a black that's pure
but when you're surrounded by nothing but darkness
you're filled with such a calming feeling

So when the world comes crashing down
you won't feel a thing, you can die peacefully
And the world becomes just like the wind
you can feel it, but you can't see it
Because what you can't see can't hurt you
it's as harmless as a breeze, blowing through the trees

I'm locked in a room filled with shadows
a place where the lights will never burn out
The lights hit my eyes and I can feel them burning
I'm begging for someone to end my pain

Call me a fake or call me a liar
I believe some people are better off dead
'Cause in my sleep I see the world burning
everything's ashes in the end

So when the world comes crashing down
you won't feel a thing, you can die peacefully
And the world becomes just like the wind
you can feel it, but you can't see it
Because what you can't see can't hurt you
it's as harmless as a breeze, blowing through the trees

I'm drowning in these nightmares that flood my dreams
They all haunt me in my sleep
This dark rain falls and I'm trying to hold on
I'm writing you these words so that what I've seen doesn't come to you in your sleep

'Cause everything that I never had
is everything that you deserve
Rainbows and birds that sing you lullabies

Let me lie still in my dark world
so that you can have the world of light
From afar I'll protect you every day and night

Please don't cry, don't shed your tears
it's not your fault that I'm not here
When you're sad, just think of me
and maybe I can make you happy
I'll always be here in your dreams
and all dreams are, are memories

am I a happy memory?

So when the world comes crashing down
you won't feel a thing, you can die peacefully
And the world becomes just like the wind
you can feel it, but you can't see it
Because what you can't see can't hurt you
it's as harmless as a breeze, blowing through the trees

Current Mood: creative

To stand at the edge of the world

And look back without regrets

The kind of life I wanted before setting out

On a brand new road of tests

But if you can’t have one thing

And you can’t have the next

Then what are you supposed to hold onto

When you have nothing left?

And when the heavens open up

And the rain starts to fall

I know I can smile once more

Knowing you’ll be there

Standing right by me

And when the sun goes beyond the horizon

And the moon rises up

I know I can sleep soundly tonight

Knowing you’ll be there

Holding me tight

To reach out to the brink

And stare into the endless space

While wrapped in warm thoughts of home

Forget the faults of human race

If they only look at the bad

And never look at the grace

Then how can they stand to stay standing there

Looking at the reflection of their face

And when the heavens open up

And the rain starts to fall

I know I can smile once more

Knowing you’ll be there

Standing right by me

And when the sun goes beyond the horizon

And the moon rises up

I know I can sleep soundly tonight

Knowing you’ll be there

Holding me tight